Uel-Tomas

A smile in the shadows Brightens the thoughts Darkens the dreams A crying boy locked away Don't tell him to grow up He will become you I won't love you After the ever after I won't make you wait Just realised life is real The things we did to become I remember everything that comes Someone knows who we are Did you know it's a secret? I could be human if I wanted Some frightened to laugh We're the only ones fully aware Of the desperate fear trying to keep you alive

I only travel two feet by foot My life What happened to my life? I know it's somewhere With someone else Your skin is peeling So I'm peeking Once a day's a habit Together only by distance You're not quite this And I could never be that If I stop, I think and fall asleep Walking along the boundaries of dreams I try to find my life again Out of windows with no view There should be pleasure somewhere here Buried deep like some kind of treasure In the bodies There should be a feeling In your soul You should already know There's a mind that thinks It wasn't meant for this My life What happened to my life? I must stop thinking Keep yourself bu

We're trying to keep you alive for some reason We can delay the grave for a few months more The nurses will help you sit upright in the chair So you can see clearly the shadow of the cloak The reaper who is not yet standing over there Machines will breathe for you When your body gives in Children will remember you Grey, cold, tubes and machines We weren't meant to last that long Blow the dying candles Flicker the guttering flame Struggle to breathe Like the rest of the world

Hair is just a frame So fix your face like a portrait It's unseemly for a smile to stay Boy I still don't know what you will be I haven't found a life you wanted Mother you built me well But I can't find the next pieces Is a mind built to think like this? Or did the teachers make a mistake In forcing me through the mold I've grown up in some ways I'm sure My vices seem less damaging than yours And that in a way is comforting sometimes But I'm glad you're still alive For as long as that lasts I'm quick to bed hoping it's a race And we trip and fall and tangle At some point I will escape my bed Even the skeleton makes its grav

They'll leave us alone I'm heading for a shallow empty existence And I want you to join me She pushed me away downhill Maybe I could roll Where she told me to go Four walls and a roof to top it off An enclosure to keep me My claustrophic territory Step right up boys One man at a time We have places for you to go Because she always says no Wants to be alone alone She's heading for a shallow empty existence Soon she will realise Jump and roll away downhill Find a place to go To join someone like me being alone

I won't be special Living shouldn't feel this bad In what possible future Could I play a part? Don't say the sorry word Dying shouldn't feel this good Good riddance they all said With no apologies What does it matter to me? Who wishes to go first? Watch from the other side I'll be the first of us to see While they have to follow me Ashes to ashes eat my dust I rode the storm out This is the place it took me too Lead me on There are places beyond The lines crossed Don't look down We're here on the unsure floor It's not so dark Just different shades of light We will help you see Things could be different here It's got t

Something marvellous Something's grown Growing up Growing dim I'm giving up She grew up with him Watched from the place I hide A view from up high A view of dark desolate sky It's been so long It wasn't like when you heard it before Like I've seen you before What did I go and say that for I'm an ok friend, no I should be so much more Can I pretend? If it's all just the same Wherever we get in the end She caught me thinking a thousand thoughts Joined you dreaming a thousand dreams A stranger's kiss upon my lips Screaming we should be together

Hushed up voices round behind Exchanging secrets while they can Before whispered rumours are dismissed Before the judgement of man Failing light I'm glad you tried Goodbye dad I'm glad you tried It's Time Rise up little fellow Surprise the world Vindicate the belief in you Held dear by the few The stories must be true A dark place to go To bring a light back A place we can grow Hope you can find the way It's time The stories must be true Rise up little fellow It can't be too late I'm glad you tried

I earned that smile I wrote this for you What did I do that for? You're my favourite lost cause Oh no, it's this again "No, not him, he's just a friend" Forever the sounds that come The sounds I fear to hear It's not so bad Just default these days If it's not up it's down There's no floating around You keep making me feel sorry Should I apologise Her twisting form Contrasts a light all of her own A new shadow born To watch from the other side A deep affection shown For all she gets around to see All of this is just fine Well I'm not quite that rich doctor That you've been looking for And keeping a foot in every open doo

Where's heaven The second chance promised to me I lived with my head held high Hoping to start living when I die Trying again I'm looking for a sound once heard Wander the night for a feeling once had I think they called it love Without you There isn't beauty in this world No more love just perversions I go through The filth I say and things I do I've got hope That is until it goes away Holding hands with her that day Supports me more than you know It's far too late So you just have to forgive me I blame you for happiness and sunshine Like you they came but never stayed Goodbye babe Wherever you may have gone Make sure